Jason says, "I had to be a good kid I couldn't take risks, I couldn't be too angry, I couldn't feel sad, I couldn't express my true self without feeling like there was something inherently wrong with me. But that's all gone now. I feel a sense of emotional freedom that I have never experienced before."
Remember how I have been struggling with abundance issues and perfectionism issues?
Well, I wanted to tell you the breakthroughs that I've had since then. I've been taking at least 30 minutes a day to really focus and practice optimal EFT on these issues. But up until this point I've been struggling trying to discover any kind of significant Crescendo moments.
That was until a week ago when I discovered something liberating, even life changing. During a session as I was focusing on magnifying a sense of Oneness and loving and happiness I remembered something about my brother. It came as a sort of "AHA" moment, something like we discussed where The Unseen Therapist can sometimes provide insights to us during the process.
My brother is 8 years older than me and so right about the time when I was around between 8 and 10 years old he was the epitome of a rebellious teenager. He would party all the time; he would sneak out of the house come in really late and he caused a lot of problems for my mom and dad.
And my mom really didn't know how to handle this phase that my brother was going through and so she overreacted with everything he was doing. In fact she overreacted so badly that Looking Back Now she was extremely cruel and verbally abusive to my brother.
I saw how much she hurt my brother's feelings and whenever she had these yelling matches with my brother and all this overreacting it, scared the living hell out of me when I was little.
It severely traumatized me.
So at that precise moment as a little boy I decided I would do everything in my power to be absolutely perfect so my mom wouldn't be mean and scream at me too.
I was able to go back to super precise moments (specific events) when these blowouts happened and let The Unseen Therapist heal the negative emotional charge that I have been burdened with my whole life. Once the emotional charge was diffused, I could look back on my entire life and and see how everything I had accomplished so far was because I was motivated by fear.
I had to be a good kid I couldn't take risks, I couldn't be too angry, I couldn't feel sad, I couldn't express my true self without feeling like there was something inherently wrong with me. But that's all gone now. I feel a sense of emotional freedom that I have never experienced before.
Now as I am building my career, it's coming from an internal motivation and it's coming from a positive place.
I am looking forward to working on these goals and trying different things and failing and just figuring out this whole process and I'm looking at it now more like an exciting Journey instead of something to be avoided. And as a bonus I have been better husband a better father a better friend in a better son since I figured this out.